Heavy lifting

When your day consists of cops being called, homework and baby crying you convince yourself you've lost it all. You even hallucinate.  So what do you do when you're out of options except to give up? You sit your ass down and relax. Saving the world isn't an occupation so don't work towards it. I'd rather we have one less crazy person in this world.lol I believe everyone needs a break. :) this one will be short today because this message doesn't need much. Plus I have a workout routine to keep up.

Calling it quits or taking care of yourself?

  Christmas is around the corner and I'm sure everyone is busy with working doubles while your food consumption is just a bowl of cereal and one of those generous peppermints sonic gives out. Ohh, you're helping with your childs homework and you forgot the formula to find the area of the square. You burnt the coffee and your shoes aren't the same. (My mother has done both). Your breath smells bad because the peppermint wore off and you still have to buy last minute milk and Buy For Less doesn't have that special sale anymore so you're bummed. You haven't shaved above the knee in 6 months and your losing weight from stress. Your baby daddy isn't helping out and you feel the world tilting too much on your shoulder. Any of this sound like you? Sure it does, shame on you. There is a difference between giving ip and taking care of yourself. You're not hiving up because you've put so much time into the matter. Sometimes you need room to scream. You don't have to stop for good but just enough time to gain sanity and your ability to use the 5 dollar razors you buy so much. Sylvia Brown once said,"Sometimes you aren't able to be the Independent but the Dependent.  Your soul needs to recharge and let someone take care of you." My meme would love this. Lol just let go every so often and take in your surroundings.  Breath the damn air and probably your BO as well. Take a shower too. That's all.

What women want to hear vs what they need to hear

    I'm sure by the title of this, you expect some expert advise on how to treat ya lady. Not so much. I'm going to start off with the dirty shit first because it's the worst of the pack. No surprises here.
    When "no" means no or just a turn on:
While in the bedroom when a woman says no, you're told that no means no and you back off. Women aren't the same and this may not concern most women. The lady of your current affatuation nay like it rough. Maybe not naughty maid or bad teacher shit. That's just not acceptable here. Lol She may like you to pull her hair or gently shove her against the wall to make you seem more masculine and by that she is turned on. If she proceeds with no and keeps it up then it DOES mean NO. So you don't ask why or if she could do you a favor. You accept it and go do your business in the bathroom if needed. Women may say shit that mean the opposite just to test you. If you get tired of a chicks "games" then you shouldn't be with her and you go your seperate way.
      When the "ex" talk is appropriate:
Women don't care how well you made your last sex partner scream or how bad you rocked that shit. She wants to know the truth. It's a war zone and a race. She needs to know if she's either better than the bitches or if she's different and that diversity turns you on. She needs to know what to do to make it better or you show her how to. The truth is a big trust issue. Trust begins in friendship but if you're lookin for a future wife then trust is a big thing in the bed. If she lets you keep the lights on then you better buy her a damn ring.
    Other random shit:
If you're worried about her guy friends then you bring it to the table like a man. If you have chick friends then you make it known who takes place in your bed at least. You need to ask to meet her guy friends but you meet the BESTFRIEND first. Those are serious relationship words. If you ask to meet her bff then you know you're putting your feelings and pride out there because lets face it, they talk about you and your actions and how she thinks you feel. So just be prepared for an interrogation because that bff will report back to the general which is a close family member. So put your game face on. If her bff is dressed slutty then you look the other way and there is none of the dating triangle shit. Them are fightin words. If your woman is wearing perfume that you like then you announce it. So she knows what does and doesnt please you. That's a good woman. Now don't get carried away with asking her to get highlights and always get her nails done. Most likely, the woman likes to get dirty and is actually interested in how to play call of duty and that awful zombie game. You tell her the truth MOST OF THE TIME. Now if shes pmsing and midterms are coming up and shes been rockin the messy bun for a week and she asks "if she looks pressentable enough for public." Wrether she looks like shit that's eaten shit or if shes actually presentable, you tell her she's beautiful. This is encouraging the strong woman. She's already had her dog ran over, don't go kickin it after death. That's all for now. I would like suggestions and cool shit like that.

To the one that this may concern.....

  You don't appreciate the happy moments until you're in a sad moment. It's just how we work. We just automatically assume the happy moments are going to stay there forever. Like we work so hard in life that we desserve an easy life or something. Do we just stay sad in that bump of an ugly road? Do we stay down once we scrape our knees or do we get up and try again..... or do we eat a cookie? The sad moments are the hardest. We fail. We hurt and mourn. We fucking cry our shit faced eyes out until we fall asleep. In those very short or life long sad moments we just slowly graze ttough the sadness like a wave pool. As if the waves are stopping us from being happy. But what if we laugh while in the wave pool? If by some miracle, someone or something makes it just a tad bit better to get through the annoying waves. We over come our fears and doubts but without our fears and doubts and heartaches, what is there left to overcome? Taxes? Black friday? 5 o'clock traffic? It's a challenge. An every day challenge that we get through. Living in the moment but preparing for the future. We need it.

While you're gone

I've thought about it all. About us.
I've made up my mind and i'm crazy about you,but usually when i make up my mind it's when it gets taken away from me.
It's hard. =( Not knowing if your day is going okay or if you feel like crying like i do.
I am happy with you. I'm crazy happy that i'm with you.
I just thought i could be stronger. You're like a damn distraction to me.
And i love it.
While you're gone i'm going to wait here for you. I'm not going anywhere.

I hope you know

I'm tired of waiting! It's like waiting for my damn menstral to end or the first of the month for food stamps! I'm sick of you ignoring me like i'm nothing to you.
I am something. I'm a woman who can make you happy and cook you food.
I'm the girl you can't find anywhere else! I'm not going to wait forever! You're wasting my time!
Are you ever going to get the hint? Ummmm hello? I imagine i'm not the only girl.
I bet there's tons,but i'm the one that'll stay longer. The one worth your time!
Why can't you hear me? =( I hope you fucking know that i waste paper writing about you.
I can't think during classes. I lose train of thought when you're mentioned and you don't give a damn like usual!!!!! IF YOU DON'T LOVE ME THEN SOMEONE ELSE WILL!!! Who do you think you are? Just randomly coming back into my life and actualy make me think you care? jeeeeeeeze! I want you to save me! S.O.S!!!
I'm getting weary of waiting. Soon enough i'll be the girl you'll never have and you'll be the guy i wish i had. You're never going to listen.
I'm just sick of being the one trying and giving.